Orphan Girl

She retched her guts out
In an old rusty basin
A murky pool of spit and blood
Disgustingly mixed up

She wiped her mouth dry
With a torn, worn-out sleeve
For she is a shambles
Draped with ragged clothing

An orphan with soulless eyes
Staring blankly at a yellowed picture
Amidst a sea of broken glass
Covered with bleeding incisions

Oblivious to the smell of decay
That envelopes the tiny room
An obsessed and mirthless smile
Is plastered to her gaunt face

She limped across the room
Dragging her lame skinny legs
Picking up a twisted silver spoon
Along with a shallow tin plate

Slowly she scooped the goopy contents
Holding it out to her most beloved
“Open your mouth wide dearest”
She pleaded to the rotting corpse

Hell With You All

A thousand blank faces
All muttering trivialities
All chattering gaily
All incoherently speaking to the other

I clap my hands over my ears
Trying to mute the noise
Rejecting all the nonsense
Being spat out by the bedeviled tongues

Shut up you imbeciles
These ears are beaten up
It is way fed up already
With your nonsensical talk

Can’t you see it bleeding
From putting up with you all
Saying how I should do this
Telling me how I ought to live

Did you think I would care
To your unsolicited concerns
Did you think I would bleed
For your ambiguous opinion

To hell with you all
This life is mine alone
I’d live the way I want it
Risking my all ‘till no more

Death, Life and I

I was made to choose
Between life and death
My mind reeled in
My heart throbbed fast

I took a view of life
It breathes new things
Fresh as an open wound
In a hurting human

I took a view of death
It murders everything
Cold as a rotted flesh
In an unfeeling human

Life tried to entice me
With its rousing joys and pains
Death tried to haggle
With its haunting numbness

It was such a thrill
To behold this comedy
An ensuing struggle of possession
For this pathetically hapless soul

My turn in this charade came
“You’ve lost me forever,
O sweet innocent Life,
I’ve long surrendered to Death”

Vampire Lestat

Where oh where is my beloved?
Oh where are you Lestat?
I called out your name yonder
But your voice I hear not

Where oh where is my beloved?
Oh where are you Lestat?
I searched the fields undaunted
But your face I see not


Where oh where is my beloved?
Oh where are you Lestat?
I trudged in the winter chill
But your warmth I feel not

Where oh where is my beloved?
Oh where are you Lestat?
I cry out to the world in vain
But your presence I sense not

Where oh where is my beloved?
Oh where are you Lestat?
The angel of death has claimed you
But your love remains here still

Bliss and Madness

I bid the world goodbye
For I don’t see purpose anymore
In staying any longer
Here with my so-called life

A lot of things I’ll surely miss
The fiery vivacity of rainbows
The comfort of the pouring rain
The mystery of the starry night

I happily leave the things I hate
The bewitching spell of vices
The alluring charm of sin
The eternal vortex of chaos

Oh how I’d miss them all
People who have pained me well
People who have loved me true
People who have changed me

The things I had so adored
Far more outweigh those I abhor
As friendship overcomes betrayal
Love overruling hatred

Still the time has come
For me to peacefully depart
From this torn life that existed
In this world of bliss and madness

A Corpse's Eulogy

Inside of me
Are the maggots feeding
Sucking out
My flesh and blood

Drowned screams
No one seems to hear
Calloused hands
No one seems to reach out to

Pitied glances
Falsely thrown my way
Words of consolation
Insincerely uttered to me

You insolent fools
How dare you think
I could actually be moved
By your pretentiousness

I am diseased
Yet you refuse to see
I am dying
But you do not believe

Soon I’ll rise up above
My charred remains
Soaring over everyone else
Flying out to oblivion

Death Won Her Over

Ragged shallow breaths
She lies in a convulsed state
A cold sweat has broken
In her sickly pale skin

Rough calloused hands
She clutches the blanket tight
Seeking the comforting warmth
Her frail body couldn’t offer

Frantic dilated eyes
She roams it all around
Searching for a light minute
To help her find a way out

Lanky atrophied legs
She commands for it to move
Besieged inside her thoughts
Escape was beyond reach

Death has arrived
Its cruel cackle chilling her bones
Its decomposed smell wrinkling her nose
A scythe posed around her neck

A duel for her life ensues
She tugs pathetically at a thread
Her cries fell on deaf ears
Death has won the battle

A Walk with Condemnation

I walk in solitude
The path I grisly walk on
Is slowly becoming shrouded
With intense darkness

I see them all
Lush green trees wither
Fully bloomed flowers wilt
Nature’s beauty dries out

I hear them all
Lovely nightingales out of tune
Lively cicadas on mute
Joyful hymns drowns out

I behold them all
The bright sun goes out
The pouring rain sets in
Each and everything grows dark

Indeed with each tottering step
My world falls apart
All happiness burns out
All living thing dies

I am damned
Everything I touch
Everything I come in contact with
Is snatched out by death

Monster Within

I cannot breathe
I do not belong here
How I wish escape
Would be easily at hand

As the dawn breaks
I pull on my mask
To hide away the darkness
No one wants to see

The warm hellos
The wistful goodbyes
That everyone exchanges
Just to keep pace with fraudulence

You would not like me
If you really knew me
The sight of the real me
Would scare you away

A monster lives within
Underneath my skin
Feeding on the pains
Living only on hatred

I am a monster
A cold hearted beast
Into the eternal vortex
Of chaos, I thrive

Vampire Lover

Luring quietly in the dark
Cold hard eyes roam free
Searching for a sign of life
In the cobblestone path

His thirst is undeniable
The need of flesh grows more
Like a flash of light
The predator sees its prey

Unmindful of the world
A girl forlornly walks by
Closing in on her
The monster hungrily lunges

Sinking deep to her fair skin
He draws out the blood
Inadvertedly glancing at her face
His vision felt betrayed

Warm caring eyes stared back
Willfully she submits herself
As an unsullied life preserver
For his starved being to feed on

In a crude sickening way
She lovingly dies for him to live
And there’s no mistaking
With the frozen smile on her now blue lips

Charismata

As the blanket drops
The floodgates open up
Unshed tears find their way
Down her sullen cheeks

Her stifled cries
And anguished moans
Were unheard of
By anyone who knows her

For when she walks amongst us
With that lively gait
No one would have guessed
How miserable she felt inside

And when she looks up to you
With her cheerful grin
You wouldn’t have guessed
How practiced her smile was

No, we wouldn’t have guessed
That just a while ago
She was lying flat on the floor
Shattered and wretched

For the world is her stage
Play up her misty eyes
Force a smile upon her lips
And the lookers-on believe

Two-Face Existence

I am a masquerade
Living two identities
Here within the stage floor
Of our so-called society

I hold up two faces
Both are total opposites
But both exist together
For reasons untold

One was the face
Of love and light
Whilst the other
Of hatred and darkness

I never created the dark one
Somebody else had
Someone had breathed life
Into the horrible mask

Thus it devours wholly
You pretentious prudes
Paving the way neatly
For the one yet to be unfurled

To see what is hidden away
Is a privilege unknown
For it does not yet belong
To live within the chaos

Reality Bites

I am sinking
Into the abysmal void
For I find no escape
From the clutches of hardship

Little by little
My spirit slips away
For I am exhausted
With the never-ending twists and turns

I find no rest here
This is killing me
I wish for this masquerade
To close down its curtains

I shun this façade I wear
I have nary a care anymore
To the dismayed authorities
And the audience of hypocrites

No chains of yours
Can hold me down in hell again
No taunting about your lips
Can suppress my struggling soul once more

I cherish now the life
I had always wanted to live
This is the real me
And there’s no turning back

Poseur in Question

feels as if my life
is being sucked out
my day-to-day existence
holds no significance

what is it that i lack
am i a raven without wings
a portrait without color
a story without its ending

why do i hide from thy eyes
am i a rose without thorns
a turtle out its shell
a human in naked splendor

what is this emptiness i feel
am i a well without water
a mind without memory
a sky without its sun

what is it that i live for
i am incomplete
i am vulnerable
i am meaningless

what is before you now
is what you wish to see
if the truth is what you seek
learn first how to cope with it

Crow in the flock of Doves

trudging slowly
down this derogatory path
i felt like a crow
in the flock of doves

no sense of belonging
could be manifested
within this ill-infested
air of hypocrisy

much to my desire
i am outcasted
for i refuse to bow
to their overbearing power

i may be lost
in this mocking darkness
though i'm never weary to try
finding out my light

liberation is what i crave for
from their prying eyes
the unsolicited incriminations
and haughty state of mind

i had chosen to carve
a different course for myself
defying all the norms
rebelling against the odds

Death: Love/Hate

i am all alone
in this cold fortress
mourning for what it is
that i have lost

how i despise you
oh relentless death
for claiming what was
once mine to hold

my voice could no longer
be heard to where you are
though your greedy cackle
still rings fresh to my ears

my hands are of no use
it shan't reach you now
though your horrid stench
still lingers about

let me not suffer the loss
here in solitude
no words from around
could console me anymore

hearken what i beseech
oh merciless death
do not shut me out
invite me in

Shadow-Cloaked Knave

'tis coming near
giving way
to the rotting stench
of its maggoty flesh

hear the screams
from yonder below
the yawning pit
of remorseful voices

see the darkness
devouring you
by its endless abyss
of complete nothingness

feel the coldness
from around you
the decomposed earth
of the spoilt blood

eyes open wide
roaming freely
frantic glances
dilated pupils

death is there
cloaked by shadows
like a thief in the night
preying for your soul

A Price So High

i had sinned
a great sin
against each and everyone
i had ever loved

i do admit
to my wrongfulness
to my wicked ways
almost unforgivable

i do admit
to abused trust
to wasted time
forever lost

now i'm paying
every debt i owe
each with a price
so high i can't afford

i lost it all
everything i held
so dear to me
with one lie

my whole life
crashed before me
still paying debts
'til death devours me

How To Persecute Me

tie me up in a tree
hang my noose tight
sharpen my guillotine
see the window of death
yet it wouldn't kill me

dismember me piece by piece
flay me to bleed
flog my body to waste
smell the stench of death
yet it wouldn't slay me

why go for the kill
when you can go for the pain
push me away from you
condemn me into exile
and my soul dies beneath your hateful stare

A Girl Scorned

Remorse was building
Ready to shout blame
Through my lips
Screaming
Anger was hovering
Poised to shoot arrows
Through my eyes
Scheming
Hatred was abound
Pulsating itself
Through my veins
Conniving
Madness was flared
About to overtake
Through my entirety
Threatening

My Vampire Lestat

Do you know Lestat?
He was a vampire
Once mine
He had eyes
That was filled
With a burning desire
For love unconditional
He had lips
That was blood-red
Unmoving and untouched
By words of warmth
He had a face
That was etched
Skillfully and deftly
In cold splendor
He had arms
That could either
Solicit life’s comfort
Or usher you to death’s door
He has traversed
Leisurely traipsed
To the heights of bliss
And to the jagged desolation
He has opened
Before my feet
A path to lightness
Another leading to darkness
I chose darkness, his abode
Just as he stepped out
To the blinding sun
Leaving his burned ashes behind

Don't Go Lestat

Lestat
Don’t go to where
I cannot follow you
Why can’t you stay here?
Oh Lestat
Don’t plead with me
With those sad eyes of yours
Why don’t you hear my plea?
Lestat
Don’t blow away kisses
Or sing the last song
Why don’t you stop the goodbyes?
Oh Lestat
Don’t give up easily
It’s not the end of it
Why don’t you live life fully?
Lestat
Don’t go to where
My feet cannot bring me to
Why don’t you see that I am here?

My Sick Sad World

Ever lived
A life of pretense
A masquerade
With shams as its theme

Ever been stuck
In the haunted past
A plant deeply rooted
With no chance of moving

Ever been lost
In wishful thinking
An uncharted land
With nowhere to go

Yours truly did
Struggling for freedom
In this sick sad world

A Fool's Wish

Willingly
I’ve bound myself
To a love uncertain

Willingly
I’ve chosen to wait
For a love unrequited

Willingly
I’ve imprisoned my heart
To a love unnoticed

Willingly
I’ve exposed myself
To a future unknown