Red-Handed Existence

Behold the blood in my hands
No water could wash them off
Some has already coursed through my veins
Taking its control over me

It serves as a screaming reminder
Of the bitter truths I hide from
The reddish gore has never left me alone
Clinging to me like a dirt-cheap whore

As night befalls the earthen floor
Voices within me become intolerable
Their continuous mockery and taunting
Led to my sanity's hopeless demise

The piteous cries of her unborn child
The maniacal curses of a scorned lover
The frustrated admonitions of an old woman
All have found a dwelling in my being

I am a cold-blooded murderer
I have thoughtlessly killed them all
No saline-filled eyes or gangrene wounds
Can desensitize the remorse I now hold

My insides are maggot-infested
This is but a hollow shell
I have come upon no peace
The dead never sleeps

Utopian Vagabonds

With your dreamy eyes
Frames a view of nirvana
A state of total oblivion
From the chaos around

Like a rivulet of blood
I pulsated into your life
Intertwining drop by drop
Into your earnest veins

A distorted image of me
Is projected in your starry irises
Painting my exposed being
With a vividly brilliant hue

Free flowing in a haze
Swimming with schools of piranhas
Two lackadaisical reprobates
Enclosed in a mental lethargy

Sudden frail manifestations
Of unknown sensibilities
Before further roused from comatose
Took a dose of suicidal asphyxia

Aversely pulled out apart
By the atrocious reality
A gloomy trace remains
The escapist's dream we once shared

Mea Culpa

A frail body soaked in blood
Almost inanimate and c0ld
Unseeing protracted eyes
Fixated at a hallowed icon

Jagged razors on the floor
Disarrayed yards of rope
Broken bottles and spilled drugs
A smoking rifle in her hand

Giving way to razor-slashed wrists
The rope burns in her neck
The froth filling her mouth
A gunshot wound in the chest

As the sheets turn crimson
The winds outside howled loudly
For one breath of life is again
Spiraling to sheer vacuity

Her bleak mirthless mortality
Swiftly flashes before her
Long-buried memories of pain
Reminiscence of short-lived joy

So it goes for one death
Another life must be repaid
The cycle of life never ends
Mea culpa, mea culpa

Channel Surfing

I watch the people pass me by
A hazy blur of mankind
All seemingly in a hurry
To get to nowhere land

No one knows where
This will all lead to
No one knows why
You are even existing

You all traverse an unknown map
You all witness unfamiliar sights
You all search for a reason
You all hope to find a purpose

My eyes dance with muted laughter
As I silently curse everyone
You don't know where you're heading
You don't know why you're here

You are nothing
Nothing but a tiny pea
In a rattling iron-cast pan
Lost with a thousand others

So I sit back and relax
To gleefully watch the TV
Of shallow scenes of pretense
And petty episodes of shams

Beholding It All Fade Out

A heavy mist has fallen
The somber sun is down
I stood there alone
Beholding it all fade out

Darkness slowly creeps in
Where pain and sorrow arrives
It is where the skies are not seen
Beholding it all fade out

Hearts for revenge
Wanting in deep anger
Calling my name
Beholding it all fade out

Enraged hateful souls
With outstretched calloused hands
Tried to pull me down
Beholding it all fade out

Tired of painful existence
I was another desolate being
Who gave up on holding on
Beholding it all fade out

Mired in murky waters
Not a single shred of desire
In ever resurfacing back
Beholding it all fade out

A Call to Death

Hell could pale in comparison
To the heated remorse I feel
Oh death where are you
To claim this willing life

I beseech you death
Do what it is you wish
This subservient lover
Cannot wait any longer

Existence does not become me
For with every breath I take
Kills me more inside instead
Oh death arriveth at my door

Everyday living is trivial
I am suffocated with lies
I am strangled by remorse
I am bound and gagged by misery

Take me now oh glorious death
Bring me to your dark abode
Free me from these chains
Give me what I've always desired

My irises dilated fast
My heart had beat its last
I had succumbed to you death
Now I'm living the life, just you and me

Salvation to the Dead

Darkness encapsulate me
Immerse in full lethargy
Where Time's hands has ceased
Chasing each other's ends

Floating serenely
In a blood-filled pool
Lulled to sleepiness
By a thousand skeletons

Saline-washed irises
Sees nothing more
But broken illusions
And jaded dreams

Acid burned flesh
Feels only the numbness
Of searing pain
And never-ending sorrow

Conquer the blinding light
Seduce the hypocritical hope
Lure the pathetic love
To devour them in your abyss

The world has nothing more
To offer to my dismantled life
I can see right through them all
Salvage me from their deceit

Peace in the Arms of Morpheus

As the midnight hour strikes
A lonely owl hoots in a distance
The entire place becomes somber
With the luminous moon above

Barely audible sounds reach my ears
Lovers muffling their moans of pleasure
Parents stifling an overfatigued sigh
A baby letting off a cry for hunger

I begin to block them out my mind
To achieve my most beloved state
A complete detachment to the world
Amidst the tranquil stupor of slumber

Within the walls of my astral trance
I am once again liberated
From the restrictions of reality
And the confines of the bitter truth

I turn into anyone I want to be
A girl out of a prolonged depression
A woman living in pure contentment
A person who lived a full life

With my dreams I am everything
So wake me not from my restful sleep
For from here on in unravels
My sweetest escape to nirvana